Slowly but surely, things are starting to come together.
It’s a genuine, honest pleasure- having some idea of what to do next, to have goals. It’s a peaceful place. Amazing how much energy I have expended my whole life avoiding it.
I’m not going to talk about this, really. I don’t want to dissapate the energy, the warm glow of my new secrets. I just want some people to know that I really am all right- and, in fact, am better than I was. This sucks sometimes, the clarity is not always there- but there is a momentum to it, and I’m riding this wherever it takes me.
Earlier in this weblog I asked my Mother for help, for guidance.
Thank you, Mother.
And now, for the secret decoder ring portion of our evening:
What I tell you three times is true.
How priveliged am I, my Mother’s son, to have the chance to meet myself three times in one lifetime? How beautiful. How beautiful.
“Well”, I thought. “This is how the world works. All energy flows according to the whims of the Great Magnet. What a fool I was to defy him.
He knew. He knew all along.”
-Hunter S. Thompson- Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas