Slowly but surely, things are starting to come together.

It’s a genuine, honest pleasure- having some idea of what to do next, to have goals. It’s a peaceful place. Amazing how much energy I have expended my whole life avoiding it.

I’m not going to talk about this, really. I don’t want to dissapate the energy, the warm glow of my new secrets. I just want some people to know that I really am all right- and, in fact, am better than I was. This sucks sometimes, the clarity is not always there- but there is a momentum to it, and I’m riding this wherever it takes me.

Earlier in this weblog I asked my Mother for help, for guidance.

Thank you, Mother.

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And now, for the secret decoder ring portion of our evening:

What I tell you three times is true.

How priveliged am I, my Mother’s son, to have the chance to meet myself three times in one lifetime? How beautiful. How beautiful.

How beautiful.

“Well”, I thought. “This is how the world works. All energy flows according to the whims of the Great Magnet. What a fool I was to defy him.

He knew. He knew all along.”

-Hunter S. Thompson- Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas