Eyes and Ears

In The Doubtful Guest by flagg1 Comment

I’m looking into a few options for my immediate future: Either finding a one-bedroom or studio, elevator building or first floor; or a roomamte for my current place. If anyone has some leads, please let me know. (NYC area). I no  longer have any pets. Thanks.

Ultimate Evil Update

In The Doubtful Guest by flagg0 Comments

Daddy dearest and I are playing Lecter/ Graham chess again. He’s been moving around the family trying to get documentation signed to force the group home/ward of the state issue, citing every screwed up thing I did since I was twelve, up to and including bed-wetting. I had already taken power of attorney away from him and entrusted my sister Gail; he had been peddling twisted facts …


In The Doubtful Guest by flagg1 Comment

My phone is now connected- I resume contact with the world… Now to get all those goddamn numbers back that died with my first phone. So If  you have not heard from me within a few days, there’s a damn good chance I need you to call me first.

That Shaft is a Bad Motha(Shut yo’ mouth!)

In The Doubtful Guest by flagg3 Comments

Jus’ talkin’ about Shaft… As a break from my current angst and venom- or perhaps summoned by it- an apparition darkened my doorway. Not some vague, insubstantial wisp or ghostly vapor, but a glowering hulk of leather clad menace, who, as always, looks as if he fuels his bike with the blood of virgins and lunches on unsuspecting families who’s …

Everybody Pays

In The Doubtful Guest by flagg20 Comments

The problem with acceptiing help from people, even if you need it… Is that eventually they decide that you never could have gotten along without them; that their contributions are the ones that mattered. I have gotten along without you before. I’ll do it again. Thanks for the help. But if this is the bill for sitting down to dine …


In The Doubtful Guest by flagg1 Comment

They say it’s a slow, horrible way to die. This morning my father suggested I seriously consider finding a group home to live in, as he will shortly be discontinuing his aid. A group home. The entire point of bothering to have the fucking foot sawed off rather than let it fucking kill me was to eventually regain my autonomy, …

My cat died recently.

In The Doubtful Guest by flagg3 Comments

I still dream of him. In my dreams I shower him with desperate love and affection, trying to make up for all the times I missed the chance, or treated hin badly, or uprooted his life, or worse. Often I apologize, and if I don”t, I think I should have when I wake. I miss him.

Ex Empire

In The Doubtful Guest by flagg1 Comment

A recent trip to Coney Island stirred up some memories, and redhead_sue helped bring them back it into focus- thank you, Sue. Coney is special to me, as it’s special to a lot of people- but what is fascinating is that it seems different to each person, that every person touched by it bears away a distinct mark. It’s a cotton candy and …