The Doubtful Guest

  • Naieve Melody

    I am content.   I spent the day celebrating my 40th annum with a group of fifteen of the best people I know. Every person there was someone I hold in high regard, ranging from my oldest friend to some I barely really know- but they have my respect, an I value their company.  …

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  • Who Do You Love?

    I walked 47 miles of barbwireUse a cobra snake for a necktieI got a brand new house on the roadsideMade outta rattlesnake hideI got a brand-new chimney up on topMade out of a human skullNow come on take a little walk withMe honey and tell me who do you love? I walked today.

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  • …With a wire brush

    I don’t have sexual dreams often. Normally I consider them a sort of rare treat. Not this time. Some twisted neural filament of traitorous, snickering neurons decided to cast the one ex I have whom I would happily beat to death with a barbed wire bat. When I woke up- possibly out of self preservation-…

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  • Eyes and Ears

    I’m looking into a few options for my immediate future: Either finding a one-bedroom or studio, elevator building or first floor; or a roomamte for my current place. If anyone has some leads, please let me know. (NYC area). I no  longer have any pets. Thanks.

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  • Ultimate Evil Update

    Daddy dearest and I are playing Lecter/ Graham chess again. He’s been moving around the family trying to get documentation signed to force the group home/ward of the state issue, citing every screwed up thing I did since I was twelve, up to and including bed-wetting. I had already taken power of attorney away from him and entrusted my sister Gail;…

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  • Hosanna!

    My phone is now connected- I resume contact with the world… Now to get all those goddamn numbers back that died with my first phone. So If  you have not heard from me within a few days, there’s a damn good chance I need you to call me first.

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  • Incomunnicado

    Both my cell phones are out of comission. contat me through email or IM until this annoyance is resolved.

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  • That Shaft is a Bad Motha(Shut yo’ mouth!)

    Jus’ talkin’ about Shaft… As a break from my current angst and venom- or perhaps summoned by it- an apparition darkened my doorway. Not some vague, insubstantial wisp or ghostly vapor, but a glowering hulk of leather clad menace, who, as always, looks as if he fuels his bike with the blood of virgins and…

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  • Everybody Pays

    The problem with acceptiing help from people, even if you need it… Is that eventually they decide that you never could have gotten along without them; that their contributions are the ones that mattered. I have gotten along without you before. I’ll do it again. Thanks for the help. But if this is the bill…

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  • Gutshot

    They say it’s a slow, horrible way to die. This morning my father suggested I seriously consider finding a group home to live in, as he will shortly be discontinuing his aid. A group home. The entire point of bothering to have the fucking foot sawed off rather than let it fucking kill me was…

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  • My cat died recently.

    I still dream of him. In my dreams I shower him with desperate love and affection, trying to make up for all the times I missed the chance, or treated hin badly, or uprooted his life, or worse. Often I apologize, and if I don”t, I think I should have when I wake. I miss…

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  • Ex Empire

    A recent trip to Coney Island stirred up some memories, and redhead_sue helped bring them back it into focus- thank you, Sue. Coney is special to me, as it’s special to a lot of people- but what is fascinating is that it seems different to each person, that every person touched by it bears away a distinct…

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  • High Water Mark.

    I got out today, to say goodbye to Coney Island before it dissapears, and meet a group of folks gathering to celebrate nice n” evil’s birthday. It was a bright, sunny day, and felt wonderful to be outside. I traveled in with my droogs Ken Soulhuntre (who braved the discomforts of “the big blue room”…

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