It’s going to have to be soon.<\/b><\/p>\n
When I went out, I was kidding myself that I was not looking for anything in particular. But I was. It showed in what I packed- lengths of rope, jennings gag, gloves. Pacing inside my head was a hungry vision, looking to feed. <\/p>\n
Ropes for the tears and the sentance that they hand down. Gloves for that extra layer of distance, making the most intimate contact a violation. The gag to show me what I want to see, what I always<\/i> want to see. <\/p>\n
But all that is just window dressing for what I really want. The private hell of the ropes is just a curtain jerker. Then the words would start, the whispers, the poison. More than ever, if I am not deep insde someone.. chewing, gnawing, ripping… then I am wasting my time. <\/p>\n
The place might as well have been empty. <\/p>\n
It’s still<\/b> rattling it’s cage, pacing my skull. Hissing.<\/i><\/p>\n
Someone<\/i> is going to have to bleed for me.<\/p>\n
It’s going to have to be soon<\/i>.<\/p>\n
“Is it any wonder I can’t sleep…”<\/i><\/p>\n
-The Smashing pumpkins, Eye<\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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