{"id":78,"date":"2006-05-28T12:29:00","date_gmt":"2006-05-28T16:29:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tdgsafety.wordpress.com\/2006\/05\/28\/i-dont-know-what-to-do-with-anger\/"},"modified":"2006-05-28T12:29:00","modified_gmt":"2006-05-28T16:29:00","slug":"i-dont-know-what-to-do-with-anger","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/2006\/05\/28\/i-dont-know-what-to-do-with-anger\/","title":{"rendered":"I don&#8217;t know what to do with anger."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I don&#8217;t anger easily, and I am often at a loss regarding how to handle it.<\/p>\n<p>Right now, I am channeling rage. <em>Old<\/em> rage.<\/p>\n<p>I met with someone I had pushed out of my life about two decades ago. I&#8217;m sure she thought it went well, that a new era of love and acceptance is being heralded in.<\/p>\n<p>Good for her.<\/p>\n<p>I am choking on my own bile. I want no part of her, want to offer her no part of my life. The fact that she appears to have suffered over our parting does not mollify me, it <em>enrages<\/em> me. My inner voice says &#8220;<em>You have no right to bleed over this. None. You got what you wanted- fuck you if you regret it<\/em>.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s not fair, or objective. It&#8217;s not reasonable or balanced.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s old, and it&#8217;s furious, and it does <strong>not<\/strong> forgive so fucking easily.<\/p>\n<p><strong>If at all.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I don&#8217;t anger easily, and I am often at a loss regarding how to handle it. Right now, I am channeling rage. Old rage. I met with someone I had pushed out of my life about two decades ago. I&#8217;m sure she thought it went well, that a new era of love and acceptance is [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/78"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=78"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/78\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=78"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=78"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/foolish-house.local\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=78"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}