• Gratitude

    I have some of the most amazing friends on the face of the fucking earth.  If anybody knew how much support and strength these charming sociopaths actually have to offer,…

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  • TES Fest travel

    A volunteer and I need to get to The Fest, but we are going to be unable to meet the 1:00 Friday afternoon bus. I’m out of the loop- are…

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  • This little piggy…

    Back from the hospital, with some alterations…. So two weeks ago I noticed some signs of infection in my right foot. This is the sort of thing I am supposed…

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  • Because Monkeys Love buttons

    After all the drama of Saturday, Monday was a welcome change. After dialysis I made my way into the city and spent the day in Central Park in good company-…

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  • My point exactly

    from a leading BDSM activist:  “What I don’t get is why people who also claim they have  their slaves’ best  interests at heart, get so riled up about SSC.”I do not…

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  • I don’t know what to do with anger.

    I don’t anger easily, and I am often at a loss regarding how to handle it. Right now, I am channeling rage. Old rage. I met with someone I had…

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  • The Men’s Group

    I am more and more pleased with the evolution of the Men’s Group at TES. When I first took it over, it was an afterthought, and a catch-all for lonely,…

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  • Comfortably numb

    Novocaine is my friend. I just began the real meat of my dental oddessy. I was grateful for the numbness, and have been through medical procedures which were much worse…

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  • A Softer World

    My house burned down I lost everything Again. It feels better every time. -A Softer World

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  • Feedback, please.

    I’m presenting a new seminar at TES soon- “I’m Only Human”… Rationalizations, Excuses,  and Passive Aggressive D/S and I’m gathering my notes. I’d like to ask:  From either side of the…

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  • Internet, how I hate you

    I may have found it… the motha-load, the Source, the dark, beating, cancerous heart of the Beast of Mediocrity. Certain sorts of websites are bad enough, catering to the oreo-stuffing,…

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  • Should

    New Innuendo post.

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  • Should

    I spent some time chasing ghosts. I’m done with that, now. Everybody pays. The check will always come sometime. This is as terrible as it is inevitable. If you spend…

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  • Spooooon!

    As many of you know, I savor fine crazy. Self mutilators, conspiracy theorists, crackpots, loons and wackos. I love the people who think that their appliances are conspiring against them,…

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  • Two good reasons to get old

    I have had my share of interesting roommates and other temporary companions since I started my medical roller-coaster. There was the delirious preacher who spoke in tongues and would attempt…

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